the only freedom I ever had

— The founder of Aura-Soma, Vicky Wall, was quoted quite often with a remark, yet i know 2 seemingly same quotes

a) the only freedom i ever had was not saying no

b) the only freedom i ever had was not being negative

The first remark I heard in an Aura-Soma Seminar when i started my training. I struggled with this remark a lot. Why had she no choice but to say yes? why could she not say no? what an impact on her life, what a struggle. Especially women in my understanding had a right in certain situation to say no.

then a few years later, i met someone that told me, her words had been: the only choice i  ever had was not being negative.

if you ever consider to enter a training in Aura-Soma, ponder on this,

dependencies

Unwanted closeness..
no longer wanted closeness…
needed closeness,
needed closeness but not able to get.
Needed
Needed energy

Needed presence.
Survival
Surrender
Dependency
Dependency as weakness
Weak and getting dependent
Interdependency
Codependency
Strength and real manhood
Needing one another
Needing each others abilities
Needing each others ressources

Hate
Hate what makes dependent
Violence
Violence against the dependent
Violence against dependency
Violence
Broken relation
Relation
Relating to each other
One relating to each other
Asymmetric relations
One relating to the other as dependent
One relating to the other as needed, needy, greedy
Violence
Violence of the one that is needed
Violence of the one that needs
Violence as balance
No balance
Need.
Freedom.

Survival
Relating
Relation due to survival
Relation due to need
Economics.